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The second book in a heart-consuming series. Ollie. Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame. Mia. Seven months ago, O The second book in a heart-consuming series. Ollie. Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame. Mia. Seven months ago, Ollie surrendered to the darkness, abandoning me in the process. He stripped me of my walls only to leave me defenseless. Now he's back, along with fresh new faces and obstacles standing in our way. He says trust no one. Not even him. How am I supposed to be strong for us both when I'm losing my grip? "Just stay with me, Mia." "Even when you're gone?" "Especially when I'm gone.".


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The second book in a heart-consuming series. Ollie. Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame. Mia. Seven months ago, O The second book in a heart-consuming series. Ollie. Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame. Mia. Seven months ago, Ollie surrendered to the darkness, abandoning me in the process. He stripped me of my walls only to leave me defenseless. Now he's back, along with fresh new faces and obstacles standing in our way. He says trust no one. Not even him. How am I supposed to be strong for us both when I'm losing my grip? "Just stay with me, Mia." "Even when you're gone?" "Especially when I'm gone.".

30 review for Even When I'm Gone

  1. 4 out of 5

    Ꮗ€♫◗☿ ❤️ ilikebooksbest.com ❤️

    Heartbreakingly good. One of my favorites! This was even better than Stay With Me, and that was an outstanding book. I love the struggle, the emotions, the romance, and the heartbreak. This sequel has every bit as much feeling and strife as the first book, but in this one, Nicole Fiorina definitely brought the heat index up to the highest levels. I’ll give this book five flames for sweltering scenes between Mia and Ollie 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥. At the end of the last book Ollies depraved brother Oscar had orchest Heartbreakingly good. One of my favorites! This was even better than Stay With Me, and that was an outstanding book. I love the struggle, the emotions, the romance, and the heartbreak. This sequel has every bit as much feeling and strife as the first book, but in this one, Nicole Fiorina definitely brought the heat index up to the highest levels. I’ll give this book five flames for sweltering scenes between Mia and Ollie 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥. At the end of the last book Ollies depraved brother Oscar had orchestrated a crime against Mia with Ollie watching but drugged so he couldn’t do anything. Mia barely escaped, but it came out that she has been with Oscar when she first arrived at Dolar. Ollie couldn’t handle the thought of Mia with his brother so he went back on his Medication. While on the meds he forgot about Mia and the deep connection they shared. Dean Lynch sent Ollie away and Oscar was sent to prison for 30 years. Ollie was in jail for seven months until they could determine that he wasn’t involved with the prostitution ring Oscar was running, he is now back at Dolar and his love for Mia is back with a vengeance. Ollie is able to see Mia and confirm that she still has feelings for him, but he starts to go into withdrawals from his medication and has to go back on it. Mia and Ollie both know that will bring forth the mean and emotionless Ollie so Mia makes him agree to stay away from her for the year while he is medicated. While Ollie was away, Mia leaned on the new security guard who had helped her get through some of her issues because of what Oscar put her through. Mia leans on Ethan more as Ollie is medicated. It is heartbreaking to see them this way because you know how much they love each other. They are both hurting but underneath it all you know that deep in their minds they are each other’s end game. The romance between these two is both inspiring and emotional and they sometimes can’t fight their feelings and that is when things really heat up. I ate up every scene where Ollie and Mia were together. The supporting characters were also awesome in this book. Zeke played a big role, he is the mute boy who was Ollies friend and who Mia would sit and talk to in the cafeteria. Jake returned from book 1 also, he was Mia’s friend who was sent to Dolar by his father for being homosexual. Ethan the security guard was terrific as was the relationship between him and Mia. I won’t give out any spoilers or give away the main storylines, but I will say that the entire book was very well written and truly spectacular, including the ending. I can’t wait to read more. I voluntarily read & reviewed an advanced copy of this book. All thoughts and opinions are my own. Blog|Goodreads|Facebook|Amazon|Twitter|BookBub

  2. 5 out of 5

    Jessica ❥Chatterbooks Book Blog❥

    4.5 Holy fucking shit! I did not see this story going where it did. Nicole Fiorina, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful relationship! Have you ever read a story that you thought was going to turn out one way, but then it went in such a different direction it left you jaw dropped? That's exactly what happened to me at the end of Even When I'm Gone! After I closed my mouth, I just stared out into space clutching my kindle with a goofy fucking smile on my face, and mentally added a star 4.5 Holy fucking shit! I did not see this story going where it did. Nicole Fiorina, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful relationship! Have you ever read a story that you thought was going to turn out one way, but then it went in such a different direction it left you jaw dropped? That's exactly what happened to me at the end of Even When I'm Gone! After I closed my mouth, I just stared out into space clutching my kindle with a goofy fucking smile on my face, and mentally added a star to my rating. If you've read this book, you may find that reaction a little weird given what occurred in the final moments of the book, but I live for that kind of shit, okay? 😂 I read so much that I'm rarely taken completely off guard in that particular way, and if this is only Nicole's second book, sign me up for all the rest! This author has balls and talent, and I have a feeling she will only get better from here. We all know how authors can be raked over the coals for allowing their characters to be messy, flawed, conflicted, and confused. I know it has to be scary to let your characters go there and hope people don't rip you apart for it. Well, if this author worries about such things, I wouldn't know. She let's Mia and Ollie fuck up, waffle back and forth between what they want, and fuck up again. Yes, there is mental illness involved, but not all of these moments of indecision and weakness are due to that. Some are due to just being human. As much as some people like to pretend they are perfect individuals that always know what they want and never make mistakes, in reality, that's just not the case. While I may not have made a lot of the decisions the characters did, I'm cool with the hero and heroine both being flawed and taking time to find their way back to each other and themselves. Some of those moments gave us a character that I hope we get a lot more of in the next book. I would go as far as to say the addition of that character made the book for me. Don't get me wrong. I love Mia and Ollie together, but this new character brought this story somewhere else entirely. I anticipate a mucher darker third book, and I'm crossing my fingers that I'm right. Bring on the crazy, because I. Am. Here. For. It! Even if that doesn't happen, I have faith in this author to work her magic and give this story the conclusion it deserves. This installment of the series is just as emotional as it's predecessor. The steamy and romantic scenes are on point. Both characters make you root for them and love them even if at some point in the story you wanted to strangle the shit out of them. Overall, totally recommend to everyone interested in the series due to the blurbs, subject matter, or reviews. If you haven't read Stay With Me, go back and do that first. This is a series, and the books have to be read in order. If you've already read the first book, definitely pick up this one. It wasn't what I thought it was going to be, and honestly, the last couple of chapters surprised the hell out of me. New adult romance fans, this one's for you!

  3. 5 out of 5

    mel ☽

    #1: stay with me ↠ 5 stars #2: even when i'm gone ↠ 3.5 stars "He was both the hero and the villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me." i'm an emotional mess right now. did i like it? YES. but did i also dislike some parts? f yes. this book is definitely not safe and it was hard to read at times but it's honestly worth it as the characters feel so real and even though you wanna shake them sometimes because of their stupid decisions, you can't help but still love them. unfortunately th #1: stay with me ↠ 5 stars #2: even when i'm gone ↠ 3.5 stars "He was both the hero and the villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me." i'm an emotional mess right now. did i like it? YES. but did i also dislike some parts? f yes. this book is definitely not safe and it was hard to read at times but it's honestly worth it as the characters feel so real and even though you wanna shake them sometimes because of their stupid decisions, you can't help but still love them. unfortunately though, these stupid decisions are the reason why i didn't like this as much as the first one and im gonna rant about said stupid decisions so SPOILERS ahead. in the first book, Mia (h) was the one who felt nothing while Ollie (H) felt everything. here, their roles switched and now it's Ollie's turn to let the darkness in. "Her body was my kingdom come. Her divine kiss was my salvation. Her soul was mine's paradise. Mia was my evermore." what i liked: ❥ Ollie & Mia (duh!) ❥ the poem written by Ollie in the beginning of each chapter. these were so beautiful (and this is an understatement btw) and they were one of the highlights in this book. ❥ second half of the book because that's where i finally felt my anxiety and dread from the angst faded away as Ollie and Mia FINALLY got together. ❥ ZEKE! (ps. still crying about that) ❥ the writing. main thing i disliked here were the characters' decisions BUT the writing is so beautiful and many of the quotes are honestly so unique and i love them. what i disliked (SPOILERS): ❥ aight we'll start with the one thing i hated the most in this book: OW/OM drama and explicit scenes: listen, i loved the first book and there were a couple of OM scenes there where the h went all the way with them but that was before her and Ollie were a couple and it wasn't as descriptive as it is here. here though, it was VERY descriptive and frankly, i was disappointed with both Mia and Ollie. ❥ OW drama: Ollie "touched" OW, let her give him a bj, watched her "touch" herself for a bit and he even went as far as putting on a condom but he eventually stopped because he went "soft" and deep down his soul was telling him to stop. What should feel good didn't. What should be me getting me off, wasn't. i can't exactly fully hate Ollie for doing this. im just disappointed. i knew what he was going through and this is NOT the real Ollie at all. the whole time i was reading this scene, i felt his pain, regret, jealousy, and hate for himself. he was full of dark thoughts and it was definitely hard to read. i still love him though. he will forever be the Ollie who would read The Notebook to Mia. although this was the only very descriptive scene from Ollie, there were times where i felt uncomfortable reading his thoughts when he gets "aroused" easily because of his medication. I couldn't help but notice Gwen's nipples harden beneath her shirt as she looked nervously. My knob pulsed to its own accord, and I wet my dry lips, hungry for a release that could never come because my heart was with Mia. i really disliked this. like, i know he can't control his "knob" but this inner monologue just made him sound like a bit douchey for my taste. Ollie that i know and love is most definitely NOT a douche. maybe not in the first book but here? yeah... he kind of was in the beginning. again, Ollie with meds is a disappointment to me for the most part but i loved how he was still fighting against his darkness. all the OW drama happened pretty early on until 35% ish. but the OM drama? oh boy, this lasted a reallyyy long time. ❥ OM scenes aka Ethan: listen, i liked Ethan sometimes and i understand his and Mia's connection because he was the one who was there for her while Ollie was gone for 7 months. Mia felt lonely and defenceless and Ethan gave her things she needed. they were strictly in the friendzone until Ollie comes back. even though Ollie had an OW scene and his inner monologue about other women annoyed/disappointed me, Ethan and Mia actually had an emotional and physical connection. and that just made the OW drama look like child's play. first of all, she lets OM sleep beside her on the bed (almost naked) EVERY night, cuddling her and she even lets him touch her inappropriately and when she feels his "knob", she doesn't do anything to stop it. I had every reason to wake him up and pull away, starting with the most important reason—Ollie—but I couldn't. I desired to be needed and wanted by Ethan in an unhealthy way that never made sense to me. So, I'd fallen back to sleep allowing his hands to roam and length to stay as he repeated words in my ear I couldn't hear. this happened after she "broke" things off with Ollie but she did it to save him and to return to her so it was kind of her plan to break up with him and i'm pretty sure she didn't really mean it. sooo why did she let this happen? one thing i really hated here is that literally a few pages earlier, she would say she loves Ollie, she's gonna wait for him because there's no one else and then a couple pages later she does this and says this? i just didn't like the inconsistency there. i dislike it when characters who says one thing but then goes on and does another thing that completely contradicts what they were thinking earlier on, but that's just my personal opinion. aaaand this dreaded OM scene where she let him go all the way to third base where h let OM give her oral sex and "touch" her. (and they never kiss by the way she wouldn't allow it). I didn't want him to stop, and my hips matched every movement of his, wanting the same thing. But something inside me was screaming. Inside, I felt sick. But, still, I couldn't find the will to stop. i really disliked her when this happened because literally ONE page before she said this: "The only way to get Ollie back was to let this charade with Ethan go. It had been going on long enough." so... what the ffff? again, the inconsistency just bugged me. these OM/OW scenes is worse for me because the MCs loved each other down to their soul by this point and they actually became a couple already. i know they're on a break but Ollie ALWAYS fought for Mia and their future even when he wasn't himself while Mia cozies up with Ethan even though she TELLS us she's going to fight for Ollie. like, i get it, the cruel pranks happening to her, the isolation, and her history, she needed someone but letting things get that far? at least Ollie had some reason with the OW that i can get around with but Mia's reason really bugged me. im disappointed to say the least. i don't fully hate this drama in this book because i understand how the MCs feel but it still bugged me because of my personal preference/opinion. but hey, i'm still very open when it comes to not so safe subject matter. i wish Mia and Ollie talked about this OW/OM more when they finally got together and actually talk about it in a mature way, but they didn't really so i'm left unsatisfied. ❥ fake friends: i kinda liked the friendship in the first book even though they were weird as hell but here? these "friends" of Mia and Ollie were FAKE. dropping Mia like that so easily? damn. Jake, my man, im disappointed in you... and where was the grovelling of these so-called friends? Mia forgave them way too easily and for once, i missed the bitchy side of Mia. BUT AGAIN, i understand that with her new character development, she has more sympathy now than ever before so it makes sense for her to forgive them so easily. "The cruel irony is you are my forever but not my right now." overall thoughts: i love love LOVE the first book and it's because it gave me hope, admiration, and all these good feelings even though there were a lot of dark aspects. but here? it just left me annoyed, disappointed with the characters and frustrated with the whole situation. even though there were OM scenes in the first book and the h actually doing it all the way with those two OM, it never bugged me because it wasn't as descriptive, and it was emotionless. Ollie was the ONLY one for Mia and Mia was only one for Ollie. the whole Ethan connection here ruined it for me. and can we talk about how book 1 Ollie wouldn't even look and touch other women as Mia was the only one for him?? i don't know, it just felt like the character development of Mia and the personality of Ollie from book 1 is WAY different and kinda ruined for me because of the tropes i hated here. but hey, others might perceive things differently. AGAIN, i understand that all these unlovely tropes are for the purpose of the story and it's actually quite brilliant but i can't help the way i feel and the real reunion of Ollie and Mia was ruined because of this. but i still love these characters, though. they're unique and imperfect and i love that. but that epilogue just about killed me! i knew that particular character was up to no good! i really can't wait to read the third one because i just NEED an HEA. ps. this ends with a cliffhanger.

  4. 5 out of 5

    alluring B ❄︎

    3.75 stars ⭐️ when i tell you i sobbed like a bitch at the first half of the book 😭 (i really didn’t have to bc it actually ain’t that deep but idk i was just emo ok) 𝚁𝚃𝙲~

  5. 4 out of 5

    Melanie (mells_view)

    Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it. Poetic. Nicole Fiorina is a talent. Plain and simple, this woman has a way of weaving words that will flood you with so many emotions and feelings, that you will feel as if you need to seek a therapy session, ASAP. It’s wild to me that the writing and the flow of this story will make you feel as if you’re in the throes of mental illness. Anxiety inducing is a better way to pu Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it. Poetic. Nicole Fiorina is a talent. Plain and simple, this woman has a way of weaving words that will flood you with so many emotions and feelings, that you will feel as if you need to seek a therapy session, ASAP. It’s wild to me that the writing and the flow of this story will make you feel as if you’re in the throes of mental illness. Anxiety inducing is a better way to put it maybe? It’s like I’m empathizing with the characters POV that I’m reading. Like I can feel their stress, love, sadness, and happiness bleeding from the pages. It’s crazy that one persons words can give me that much feeling. The rollercoaster of Mia & Ollie’s love is long and twisty, but so far worth the ride. The intricacies and complexities of the people and life they live in general at Dolor is just, psycho, and that’s putting it mildly. I honestly can’t say much more about this story without spoiling things. So what I will say is that this is part 2 in the 3 part story of Ollie & Mia. There is love. There is loss. There is violence. There is happiness. There is sadness. There is vengeance. There is mystery. There is suspense. There’s a little bit of everything this session at Dolor, and better yet there’s more to come. Y’all. I’m gonna need a minute. Or five thousand. If you haven’t read Stay With Me, do it now. So you’re prepared for EWIG when it releases October 29th. https://instagram.com/p/B4M9FI2AuqG/ https://instagram.com/p/B3u_iqGgPdd/ ^fan edit on IG! AVAILABLE NOW!! *ARC.

  6. 4 out of 5

    Allyson

    Thank you Nicole for my ARC!!!! I also purchased this book and the first one... that is how much I love this series!!! Book two is out now!! I really don't know how to put what I'm feeling into words. This is the second book in a three book series and they only get better! There were parts of this book that were really hard to read. I didn't like Ollie at the beginning ( and it's really hard not to like him because he is awesome) but that was because we were seeing another side to him! Mia bless Thank you Nicole for my ARC!!!! I also purchased this book and the first one... that is how much I love this series!!! Book two is out now!! I really don't know how to put what I'm feeling into words. This is the second book in a three book series and they only get better! There were parts of this book that were really hard to read. I didn't like Ollie at the beginning ( and it's really hard not to like him because he is awesome) but that was because we were seeing another side to him! Mia bless her heart, she is so damn strong to have gone through all she did. The twist and turns in this book had me screaming at my kindle. The ending WTH!!!!!!!!!!!! Nicole's ability to write so good makes you feel like you are there and to bring so many emotions out of you. I can't wait for the next book and I'm praying there will be some HEA!!! Nicole you wrecked my feelings with this book!!! Great job!!!!

  7. 5 out of 5

    ABookLover73

    FIVE poem stars for MIA and OLLIE ❤🖤❤🖤!!! 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 I still can't believe that "Stay With Me" is Nicole's debut book because it's brilliant, but that is nothing compared to "Even When I'm Gone", the second book this series 😱! The first book was an emotional roller coaster. There were a few times when my tears were dropping trough my face but this one was also emotional and shattered my heart a lot of times. Nicole Fiorina has a beautiful writing style that penetrates the soul. I felt everything. Every eac FIVE poem stars for MIA and OLLIE ❤🖤❤🖤!!! 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 I still can't believe that "Stay With Me" is Nicole's debut book because it's brilliant, but that is nothing compared to "Even When I'm Gone", the second book this series 😱! The first book was an emotional roller coaster. There were a few times when my tears were dropping trough my face but this one was also emotional and shattered my heart a lot of times. Nicole Fiorina has a beautiful writing style that penetrates the soul. I felt everything. Every each word touched my heart. My soul. My mind. In these two books, she wrote about true life problems, mental health and social issues in the way I didn't find in any other book with these topics. Mia and Oliver's relationship is all but ordinary. They started as enemies who fought each other until they became conscious of the connection between them. And just when I thought they finally found their happily ever after, something happened to separate them apart. Epilog shocked me and I can't wait to read the next book in series 😍!!! If you're looking for a book that wrecks your emotions, this is a book for you 💖!!! Highly recommended!!!

  8. 5 out of 5

    TheSassyNerdBlog

    Fuck... Double fuck. My heart... I have cried more times reading this than I have in my entire life. This story is so close to home for me... SO FUCKING CLOSE. it's almost scary... Nicole Fiorina is new but don't let that fool you. This woman is talented beyond belief and has come in swinging. She has raised the bar. Seriously... FUCKING AMAZING. ------------------------------------ Round two reading. It's that good.. And this story is something close to heart... so round two! -------------------- Fuck... Double fuck. My heart... I have cried more times reading this than I have in my entire life. This story is so close to home for me... SO FUCKING CLOSE. it's almost scary... Nicole Fiorina is new but don't let that fool you. This woman is talented beyond belief and has come in swinging. She has raised the bar. Seriously... FUCKING AMAZING. ------------------------------------ Round two reading. It's that good.. And this story is something close to heart... so round two! ------------------------------------ I finished the second round with this book and I'm even more speechless as I was the first time around. I seriously do not know how to review this book and I don't mean that in a bad way. It was just that fucking brilliant that I am struggling to find the words to come with how amazing this book was. I am not sure where this author has come from, all I know is that her books are pure gold. I am no stranger to mental health. I struggle myself and in a lot of ways, I am a lot like the main female in this story. I actually think I am a little bit more than a lot... It's been like looking into my own story, in a way.. some parts are very different, of course, but some were so accurate it was scary. I felt like this author was writing my life story. If I thought book one kicked my ass, I was very very mistaken. Even When I'm Gone just shattered me into pieces, and what did I go and do? I went back for more. I honestly don't know where to start. I fell in love with Ollie and Mia from the very beginning. Their story is a little similar to my own, so it drew me in straight away. But what has kept me this drawn in is the way the author tackles this subject in her books. Mental health can be viewed from many angles, but I felt as though the author viewed it from my own. Having lived with mental illnesses my entire life, it was refreshing, yet devasting and heartbreaking to read something that I didn't feel was written from a textbook or google. The story feels like it came from her heart and that this subject was also something she could relate to. The accuracy of her words and the way she explains certain scenes in the book were amazing. I am not even going to try and detail this, because honestly? You need to go into this series blind... Or I think personally you won't get the full experience. But I do have a few things to say. Nothing is what it seems. NOTHING and when you think you may have worked out where the author is taking this, she will turn around and gut-punch you hard and leave you hanging on for dear life. I was... I was hanging on to each and every word. My head was spinning. My heart pounding. This book is NOT for the faint of heart. I even struggled with some parts and that says a lot because I can handle a lot but like I said above, this story hits home hard for me and I was emotionally invested in Mia and Ollie. I honestly don't know what else to say, other than be prepared for your mind to be mind fucked like never before. You think you know what you are in for but mark my words. YOU DO NOT! Mental health is such a big thing, it's so well known, yet it's treated taboo by so many. This story kind of blows that out the water. Ms. Fiorina has a profound ability to weave her words together and create a masterpiece that I couldn't put down, that consumed me for weeks... I'm not talking hours or days... Weeks. I read this and re-read it before I type this up and as you can tell. My mind is a mess, and my review isn't much better... But it's coming from my heart, and not wanting to give to much away because as I said before, you need to go into this blind. Take the leap. Go in open-minded. Fall in love with Mia and Ollie, but be prepared for that love too for them to be tested. Once again, Nicole flaws me. Shatters me. Wrecks me. Breaks me to pieces and achingly slowly she puts it back together piece by piece, but I don't feel like it'll ever be fully healed. This author has gotten under my skin, and I need more. I want to know more of what's in that insanely amazing brain of hers, because if any of her future books are anything like this? Then I'm sold. She's an auto one-click for me now. 10000000 Stars!!!

  9. 5 out of 5

    jasmin • febrvaryfriday

    i actually started book 3 right after finishing this last night because i was just......not okay. and i'm not a series binger AT ALL so this means a lot coming from me!! this book was immaculate. i love mia to death and even though ollie can be a little much for me at times, seeing them together is just AH perfection. i loved this even more than book one! we saw so much growth and development and intrigue and i was just so invested in everything that was happening. this series is everything and i actually started book 3 right after finishing this last night because i was just......not okay. and i'm not a series binger AT ALL so this means a lot coming from me!! this book was immaculate. i love mia to death and even though ollie can be a little much for me at times, seeing them together is just AH perfection. i loved this even more than book one! we saw so much growth and development and intrigue and i was just so invested in everything that was happening. this series is everything and unlike anything i've read. it's so much more than "just" a romance and i can't get enough of it. i'm scared of everything that's going to happen in book 3 but i'm also SO EXCITED ah. nicole fiorina really did THAT. also, if anyone knows where i can get my hands on a poetic hoodie, please hit me up???🥺

  10. 4 out of 5

    Bozena

    OMG! This my friend is definitely a must read 2019! This second book by Nicole Fiorina and second in the series was just WOW!OMG! unbelievable gripping and hellish emotional. I don't even know how to describe my emotional condition right now. This book wrecked me 😩 It was a torture to read some of the chapters 🤯. My fingernails are gone thanks to the continuous breath-holding suspense 😂 and honestly? I loved every second of this heartache and wouldn't change a thing about it 😍❤ Mia's and Ollie's st OMG! This my friend is definitely a must read 2019! This second book by Nicole Fiorina and second in the series was just WOW!OMG! unbelievable gripping and hellish emotional. I don't even know how to describe my emotional condition right now. This book wrecked me 😩 It was a torture to read some of the chapters 🤯. My fingernails are gone thanks to the continuous breath-holding suspense 😂 and honestly? I loved every second of this heartache and wouldn't change a thing about it 😍❤ Mia's and Ollie's story is so never-ending dramatic and incredible beautiful at the same time. Their unique love story is like nothing that I read before. This book leaves you breathless and emotional spent, but with a enormous need for more. I'm really in love with the characters and not only with Mia and Ollie, through they will always stay my favorite soulmates couple, but also with Ethan and Jake. I know with the abrupt and surprising ending and unknown future because of the epic cliffhanger 🤯, someone will think that Ethan is a loose cannon, but hey! no one is perfect 🤷🏻‍♀️ After the first book I was curious if the second book would be as good as the first and you know what? I think it was even better 🤗 So much drama and heartbreak in so short time is inhuman, but that's what this book is about. Take mental breakdowns and mental disorders mixed with psychopathic behavior and you have a small glimpse of the big story. I can't give you more details, because I don't want to spoil this dark book for you, but trust me when I say it is a must read. I love drama and heartbreak in my books, but this series brings it to the extremes limits of emotions. If you haven't read the first book "Stay With Me", you've still time utill October 29th. You've to read the first book before you start this one! I highly recommend to read it blind like I did. If you love drama and more drama without HEA (this time 😩 I'm sure there'll be a HEA in the 3rd book 🤨), this is a story for you.

  11. 5 out of 5

    twistedbybooks

    ARC kindly provided for an honest review. 5 stars!!! I have been thinking how to start this review, probably I could have chosen a quote from the book or a simple what the hell? But probably those weren’t the right words for this book and how it made me feel while reading it. I remember when I finished Stay With Me and how it made an impact in me because of Ollie and Mia’s story. I’m not like I wish I could have a love like theirs, because honestly, I’m not ready to feel so much and love too fuc ARC kindly provided for an honest review. 5 stars!!! I have been thinking how to start this review, probably I could have chosen a quote from the book or a simple what the hell? But probably those weren’t the right words for this book and how it made me feel while reading it. I remember when I finished Stay With Me and how it made an impact in me because of Ollie and Mia’s story. I’m not like I wish I could have a love like theirs, because honestly, I’m not ready to feel so much and love too fuckin much but oh God, I do not regret anything. How everything started until the end... it was a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings, of confusions and anger... and the anxiousness of what the hell is going on and who is doing all of this. The beginning of the book was hard to read but because we do not see our Ollie who he is but who he become because of something (readers of SWM would understand). I missed our Ollie, Mia’s Ollie a lot but at the same time I got this feeling that we needed to see this part of him because that’s another part of who he is, even if it makes him a jerk sometimes. The struggle of his feelings and emotions towards Mia was so beautiful and painful to read, because you know that he loves her so much that it can actually hurt him more than he could have ever hurt her. There were part in which I would scream a big NO for what was happening and how things was turning out. I ain’t gonna lie, I thought that it was it, that there were not going back and that they would never recover from this. But they did, stronger than ever and... together, how it is supposed to be. The things that I read and the things that happened... I warn you, this isn’t a light story nor an easy one. There are so many moments in which you would think that you know it all, that you have everything figured it out. You’re wrong, because until the end, you don’t know anything and anybody at all and there is where the big surprise is. I cried a lot and this book broke my heart. I honestly do not what should I expect from book three but I’m sure about one thing and that is that I can’t wait to read it.

  12. 4 out of 5

    it.sgottabethebooks

    Nicole Fiorina knocked this one out of the park. Holy smokes, from the first few pages I was already in the feels. It was insanity how hard I was already hurting and how mad I had gotten. I seriously couldn’t put this book down. Book 2 in this debut series by this author will have you in awe. How someone new in the writing world could deliver such a strong, emotional connection with her readers through her words is phenomenal. I can’t recommend this book as well as the first book enough. It is a Nicole Fiorina knocked this one out of the park. Holy smokes, from the first few pages I was already in the feels. It was insanity how hard I was already hurting and how mad I had gotten. I seriously couldn’t put this book down. Book 2 in this debut series by this author will have you in awe. How someone new in the writing world could deliver such a strong, emotional connection with her readers through her words is phenomenal. I can’t recommend this book as well as the first book enough. It is a story like no other. Nicole Fiorina will have you mesmerized and obsessing from the prologue to the very end. Everything about book 1 to book 2 tied in altogether and flowed seamlessly. Every moment was perfectly written as it built up...everything that I questioned and wondered was answered. All the heartache, anger and angst was well worth it. The buildup you had on my feelings was out of this world. I’ve never been so scared to read a book I was anticipating. 5+Stars for Even When You’re Gone!!

  13. 5 out of 5

    emi

    holy fucking shit. this book gave me all the emotions, i cried hard, laughed even harder, and was at the edge of my seat the whole fucking time. amazing, just amazing.

  14. 5 out of 5

    Annie Emerson

    Nicole Fiorina’s exceptional debut novel ‘Stay With Me,’ made it into my top 10 must-reads & read over & over repetitively list! Can’t wait to see where Ms Fiorina takes Mia & Ollie in EWIG. So excited for the continuation of this series. Highly recommend you cram in SWM before the October release of EWIG! Now I've read it, official ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ review. ’Even When I’m Gone’ I can’t talk about EWIG without first mentioning its stunning debut counterpart ‘Stay With Me.’ SWM, introduces us to Dolor R Nicole Fiorina’s exceptional debut novel ‘Stay With Me,’ made it into my top 10 must-reads & read over & over repetitively list! Can’t wait to see where Ms Fiorina takes Mia & Ollie in EWIG. So excited for the continuation of this series. Highly recommend you cram in SWM before the October release of EWIG! Now I've read it, official ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ review. ’Even When I’m Gone’ I can’t talk about EWIG without first mentioning its stunning debut counterpart ‘Stay With Me.’ SWM, introduces us to Dolor Reformatory College & to our heroine Mia & our poetic hero & all-consuming Ollie. SWM is where a mistake & delinquency collide with destiny. Mia is a promiscuous & damaged 19yr old girl, Ollie is a 20yr old man who feels everything & doesn't necessarily belong in the reformatory walls of Dolor. SWM is the beginning of their journey together & the pain, trust & confusion that spirals these two in & out of a tortuous & angsty, but beautiful dance. You CANNOT read Even When I'm Gone without reading Stay With Me. This is a trilogy, not a standalone. The third book is currently in the process of being written & I CANNOT WAIT! Ok, so Even When I’m Gone is the meat & bones of the Stay With Me Series. It's where we jump off into the darkness that consumes Ollie. The prologue dips it's feet into the place where we left off in SWM, but the first chapter begins 7mths from where SWM finished. And so begins the mushroom-less trip of your life! We see a different Ollie, we see a different Mia, we see two damaged characters who've swapped roles. Now it's Mia’s turn to lead Ollie out of the darkness of his now medicated mind. But at what cost to Mia? ’The thing was, Ollie had known what I’d needed to get me to this place. He’d, somehow, known the very thing I’d needed to break down my walls was by him pushing and pushing me and never letting go. And I knew exactly what Ollie needed this very moment. The only way to get Ollie back was to give him the girl without emotion. The girl without feelings. The fucking sociopath—the girl he fought so hard for once upon a time.’ ’A warm hand landed over my shoulder, and Zeke shook me. Glancing up, I met eyes with him as he signed, You’re Mia and Ollie. Never broken, only bent.’ Mia's journey here is a fight to the death, claw your way outta hell type journey. Just as Ollie fought for Mia, Mia will push every hardline that exists. She will push when she's being pulled & she will be the air Ollie needs when he can't breathe for himself anymore. ”Just stay with me, Mia.” ”Even when I'm gone?” ”Especially when I'm gone.” EWIG is a rollercoaster ride of plot twists & WTF’S GALORE!! We have a few new characters & we have hotty Mchotterson Ethan Scott, the police officer that we met in SWM who is now a security officer at Dolor. Oh Mr Scott, aren't you a spanner in the works?!? ’I’d known Ethan for seven months now. Over the summer, we’d established an unusual bond no one could know about.’ ’I just needed someone to hold me because when my eyes closed, the ache surfaced. Ollie wasn’t here to take it away, but Ethan was.’ ”You’re desperate, I know, but his touch is never going to fix it. You’re empty, I know, but he can never fill the place I once did. I warned you, my love, but you’re stubborn and never listen.” -Oliver Masters- EWIG goes dark, EWIG goes sexy. EWIG is everything you need to satisfy desires you didn't even realise you had. Who can you trust? Who is out to destroy Mia & Ollie? Are Mia & Ollie strong enough to survive everything that the walls of Dolor hold within them, that those WITHIN its walls throw at them? Fuck if I didn't love trying to work it out. This book is a delicious counterpart to Stay With Me & will not leave you disappointed. It delves deep into the pits of Dolor hell. It will have you clenching your thighs one minute & ugly crying the next. It has all the ingredients that make Nicole Fiorina an author to watch out for. If this is her debut series I CANNOT even tell you how excited I am to watch this author grow to a standard we’ll rule other story tellers by. The tone of this series is dark & enticing, the love between Mia & Ollie will leave you questioning how far you would go for someone you love when they’re lost to the darkness. It'll show you how love is unconditional when in the hands of those who refuse to let it go, who refuse to let it drown in the ether of ”too hard”. I could write pages & pages about why you should read this book & how it will legitimately consume you. The book itself is as quote worthy as fuck! If I took a highlighter to Even When I’m Gone, it’d be lit up like the Fourth of July. Are you ready for the proverbial greasy dude at the fair, to lock down the bar & strap you into the front row of this roller coaster that is EWIG? Good. I’d also suggest a shit load of chocolate & ten boxes of Kleenex. You’re gunna love it! ”If you don’t walk out of here with Mia, know there are other fish in the sea.” In an instant, my smile faded. “You don’t get it. Mia is the sea.”

  15. 4 out of 5

    bookbabereviews / brianna j.

    It's not secret that I have a mini obsession with Nicole Fiorina but the obsession stems from my love of her brilliant mind. She has managed to chew me up and spit me out AGAIN. And this time I relish the pain and smile the whole way through. I'm struggling a little bit to write this review because I have so many thoughts that I want to organize but I just feel like a hamster running on a wheel. When Stay With Me ended, I was heartbroken and sloppy. All I thought about was Ollie as I tried to fig It's not secret that I have a mini obsession with Nicole Fiorina but the obsession stems from my love of her brilliant mind. She has managed to chew me up and spit me out AGAIN. And this time I relish the pain and smile the whole way through. I'm struggling a little bit to write this review because I have so many thoughts that I want to organize but I just feel like a hamster running on a wheel. When Stay With Me ended, I was heartbroken and sloppy. All I thought about was Ollie as I tried to figure out what was going to happen but because this storyline is so utterly unique I came up completely empty, I couldn't theorize, I couldn't imagine what the book would look like because this is such uncharted territory. The. Writing. The one liners in this book served as both a knife to the chest, and a really good hit from a nice california blunt. Sometimes they hurt so bad I could barely breathe and others put me in such a state of bliss that I felt high on the story. The highs in this book were very high and the lows were horribly low. There was no inbetween. We were plunged into the minds of two people who view emotion so very different but altogether the same. Their love for eachother is limitless. They are really two sides of the same coin, sewn together by an invisible thread. Ollie and Mia are Ollie and Mia. That's the only way I can describe it. I've never read a love story like theirs, I've never seen such a deep love written like this before. Nicole is such a unique and original author, it continually shocks me to the core that I can message her and have a casual conversation. I have her on such a pedestal because her writing is transcendent. Her writing will live on long after we're gone. It is poetic, tragic, mesmerizing and utterly impactful. Her characters have managed to dig their way into my dark soul and make a home for themselves. I have a few characters who have never left me, who linger in the background of my life movie and star in my decision making process, my sweetest dreams, my most treasured memories. Ollie & Mia are two of those characters. I welcome them with open arms, and I promise to keep them safe. Book two was a rollercoaster of epic proportions. It was flawless. I laughed, I cried, I giggled, I swooned, I cried some more, I cried a little more after that, but in the end I feel satiated and happy, despite the cliffhanger. I'm happy because I know that Nicole has me. I trust her completely, I know this story has to work itself out and I am here for the journey. I am here for the tragic pain, for the beautiful peace. Thank you Nicole for gifting me the pleasure of reading this beauty early. I owe you a million coffees. When I think of Nicole the word "incredible" always comes to mind. This was no exception...absolutely incredible.

  16. 5 out of 5

    B. Celeste

    Oh, Nicole. How you break me

  17. 5 out of 5

    *My Little Book Nook*

    I love when a sequel comes out of the gate swinging, promising to live up to the hype generated by its stellar predecessor. That’s what Even When I’m Gone does. Even When I’m Gone is a true illustration of unconditional and all-consuming love, and Ollie and Mia are the perfect example of how your vulnerabilities and flaws can become empowering virtues with the right person. Nicole Fiorina didba great job with book two, and I cannot wait to experience the conclusion to this dramatic and emotional I love when a sequel comes out of the gate swinging, promising to live up to the hype generated by its stellar predecessor. That’s what Even When I’m Gone does. Even When I’m Gone is a true illustration of unconditional and all-consuming love, and Ollie and Mia are the perfect example of how your vulnerabilities and flaws can become empowering virtues with the right person. Nicole Fiorina didba great job with book two, and I cannot wait to experience the conclusion to this dramatic and emotionally gripping love story. I’ve honestly never read a book quite like this one, and the creativity and imagination that went into crafting such a unique an intricate story is brilliant. To tackle complex topics such as the ones covered in this series is bold, and it takes courage and confidence. Nicole Fiorina is conquering and redefining tropes, and it’s an emotional and breathtaking experience. I thoroughly enjoyed Even When I’m Gone, and I cannot wait for book three (because OMG that cliff hanger!!!). Oliver Masters is still every bit the enigmatic and poetic hero I fell for in book one. EWIG only adds to his depth and appeal, and I’m even more obsessed with him than I was before. The way that he loves completely and the poetic way he sees the world turned me to absolutely mush. Ollie Masters is the definition of swoony, and my heart still beats and breaks for him. In book one I had difficulty connecting with Mia. I liked her, but I didn’t love her. I struggled with continuity of her character and the flow of her arc. EWIG fixed a lot of that for me. Her growth and authenticity develop fluidly, and I cannot wait to see the full bloom sure to come in book three. When I consider everything Mia has been through, and all the shit life has thrown at her, the way she chooses to approach the challenges in EWIG is inspiring and empowering. I have a whole Mia cheering section in my brain from the times that she dusted herself off and made me say “YEEEES GIRL!!!” EWIG has shocking twists, deliciously hate-able villains, romantic and sexy steam scenes, TWO super hot book boyfriends, and some seriously gorgeous prose. It’s a refreshingly new plot outline with interesting and compelling subject matter, and I’m pretty sure I didn’t blink for the last 15% of the book. If you liked SWM,don’t miss the next installment of this series. And for the love of Ollie, check it out ARC gifted by author in exchange for an honest review.

  18. 4 out of 5

    crystalz

    i've been anticipating this book to come ever since i read stay with me. nicole is a TALENTED writer, point blank period. i really admire her writing skills and how beautifully written the story was. i really wanted to see mia work hard for ollie, the way ollie fought hard for mia in book #1. unfortunately, i didn't see her work too hard for him. i get it that even though he was gone or wasn't mentally there, she still loved him and would wait for him. but she was shacking it up with ethan. i ge i've been anticipating this book to come ever since i read stay with me. nicole is a TALENTED writer, point blank period. i really admire her writing skills and how beautifully written the story was. i really wanted to see mia work hard for ollie, the way ollie fought hard for mia in book #1. unfortunately, i didn't see her work too hard for him. i get it that even though he was gone or wasn't mentally there, she still loved him and would wait for him. but she was shacking it up with ethan. i get it, she needed some type of emotional connection now that she could feel again. but she really didn't have to get too far with ethan cause i thought ethan was a sweetheart at first and i really liked him. i just wish she tried harder. ollie, on the other hand, fought so hard with his demons. it seems like he was able to get back to himself by himself with motivation from the back of his mind that he deeply loved mia. mia and ollie are definitely made for each other. their love is beautiful, unconditional, and poetic. “Because love is constant. When you love someone, you can be angry with them, you can hate them, you can be upset or disappointed in them, but you never stop loving them because love endures all other emotions.” there was a lot of drama and some parts that were really dark. don't want to get into detail, but i really like how the story was written out. there was romance, mystery, suspense, sadness, and more. it'll put you in a roller coaster of emotions, forsure!

  19. 5 out of 5

    Wayward Readers Book Blog

    It is hard to put words to this review as the book was nothing less than an emotional experience. Nicole Fiorina’s writing is eloquent, dark, and represents the raw beauty that is the human condition. This is the second book in her Stay With Me series and should be read as such. The characterization is fully developed and wonderfully drawn out in manner that evokes palpable reactions from the reader. Nothing about the narrative is trite as Fiorina approaches her topics with gritty truths and aut It is hard to put words to this review as the book was nothing less than an emotional experience. Nicole Fiorina’s writing is eloquent, dark, and represents the raw beauty that is the human condition. This is the second book in her Stay With Me series and should be read as such. The characterization is fully developed and wonderfully drawn out in manner that evokes palpable reactions from the reader. Nothing about the narrative is trite as Fiorina approaches her topics with gritty truths and authenticity. The plot is full of twists and turns that are woven into a spectacularly dynamic storyline. Books like this are the reason I read. 5 stars.

  20. 4 out of 5

    Heather 'Confessions Of A Bibliophile' Creighton

    ❝ He was both the hero and villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me.❞ Even When I’m Gone is book two in the Stay With Me Series by Nicole Fiorina . Let me just start off by saying, this book, as well as Stay With Me , has completely wrecked me! This is a three-book series so book one MUST be read first. If you have not read Stay With Me yet, you may want to skip this review, as there may be spoilers. With that said, you know how some series, they usually peak at book ❝ He was both the hero and villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me.❞ Even When I’m Gone is book two in the Stay With Me Series by Nicole Fiorina . Let me just start off by saying, this book, as well as Stay With Me , has completely wrecked me! This is a three-book series so book one MUST be read first. If you have not read Stay With Me yet, you may want to skip this review, as there may be spoilers. With that said, you know how some series, they usually peak at book one and then it’s all downhill after that? Well, I was worried that would be the case with Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone. As freaking AMAZING as SWM was, I thought nooo freakin way could EWIG be anywhere even close to as captivating as that… yeaaa I was wrong! It has taken me two weeks to sit down and finally write this review, and STILL, I doubt I’ll be able to properly express just how AMAZING this story really is. These books are far from an easy read. The journey we are on with Mia and Ollie is intense and most definitely not for the faint of heart, but I promise you, you won’t find ANYTHING like this emotional, gripping series! ❝ For a love everlasting, make her roses out of paper. For a love as poetic, make her roses out of literature. And if you’re really lucky enough to find both, remind her every damn day.❞ —Oliver Masters There is no way I can review Even When I’m Gone without first talking about Stay With Me. Stay With Me is where we first learn of Dolor Reformatory Collage, as where we first meet Mia and Ollie. EWIG begins seven months later from where the story left off. In Stay With Me, we have Mia, who felt absolutely nothing. But Ollie, Ollie felt EVERYTHING. Now, in Even When I’m Gone, their roles have reversed and it’s Mia’s turn to bring Ollie back from the darkness that his medicated mind has engulfed him in. ❝ I want you to love me anyway,” a single, lost tear trickled down his cheek, “Give me a year to get better, and I’ll give you a lifetime.❞ But the process will be a heartbreaking, grueling one. If you think Ollie went through hell trying to save Mia from herself, you haven’t seen anything yet… ❝ She was my life source, and even though I was confused by a lot. I was certain of one thing: I needed her. Like breathing, I fucking needed her.❞ The second half of Even When I’m Gone, has things FINALLY improving for Ollie and Mia… But this book is a rollercoaster of emotions and just when you think it’s OK to finally take a breath… BAM! The angst will slap you right across the face! ❝ The thing was, Ollie had known what I’d needed to get me to this place. He’d, somehow, known the very thing I’d needed to break down my walls was by him pushing and pushing me and never letting go. And I knew exactly what Ollie needed this very moment. The only way to get Ollie back was to give him the girl without emotion. The girl without feelings. The fucking sociopath—the girl he fought so hard for once upon a time.❞ ❝ The cruel irony is you are my forever but not my right now.❞ —Oliver Masters Even When I’m Gone is an emotionally, devastating, heartbreaking, new adult romance filled with so much angst that it will rip your heart to shreds only to turn around and piece it back together again. Just when I think that there can’t possibly be any more twists and that I’m starting to figure things out, BAM! I LOVE books that leave me guessing (because usually, I know what’s what right off the jump) but not EWIG! Fiorina kept me on my toes until the very last page, and even then, I was still guessing! ❝ There may be a storm inside my head, but never get between me and my heart. That is a battle you will lose every time.❞ —Oliver Masters The constant build-up in this book had my heart beating out of my chest… I was so anxious the entire time I was reading. I am so invested in these characters, and their relationship. There were some scenes where I couldn’t catch my breath because I had been holding it for so long, some scenes where I was literally shaking while reading because I was so upset with the choices they were making. My heart couldn’t catch up! ❝ Because love is constant. When you love someone, you can be angry with them, you can hate them, you can be upset or disappointed in them, but you never stop loving them because love endures all other emotions.❞ I have NEVER, EVERRR cried as much as I have while reading these two books you guys! Nicole Fiorina is KILLING IT! I may or may not have a mini girl crush on her. I mean how can you not? Did you see her DEBUT novel? Shit like this just doesn’t usually come from a FIRST RELEASE! But here she is, with her SECOND release, killing it all over again! Nicole has created these perfectly imperfect, flawed characters that you will love anyways. They make mistakes, they fucked up, but still, you know who THEY are and you can’t help but continue to root for them. The way Fiorina composes this poetic dialogue, absolutely amazing. I highlighted so much of this book that it took me an hour just to go through and figure out which quotes I would add to my review because if I had added everything I highlighted there would have been nothing left for you to read! Nicole Fiorina, remember the name ya’ll because I have a feeling we will be seeing a whole lot more of it EVERYWHERE! ❝ Sometimes all we need is someone who will sit in the dark with us.❞ —Oliver Masters I was so empathetic towards both, Ollie and Mia. I’ve dealt with my own mental health issues and in some aspects, I could relate to BOTH of them in different ways. I am so, so invested in this book, and these characters. BRAV-FUCKING-O Nicole, I know I said it already but YOU ARE FUCKING KILLING IT! ❝ We’re Ollie and Mia. Not some bloody love story or fairy tale. Those all have endings… Real love never dies.❞ There is so much character growth with Mia in EWIG. She has overcome so much and STILL, she continues to battle. Battle her own mind, battle for Ollie and his love, battle an unknown prankster who is determined to hurt her… that girl is so much stronger then she gives herself credit for. ❝ Because just as much as she was all— consuming, she was imperfect and honest—the representation of love. Consuming. Imperfect. Honest.❞ My Ollie 💜 He is such a beautiful, brilliant, unique soul. I fell in love with Ollie in SWM, but in EWIG, I felt so, so, so much more for him. We learn a lot more about Ollie’s background, and all the things that he had to endure as a child and as a young teen. Seeing who Ollie turned into while he was on those god awful meds… KILLED ME! In EWIG, Ollie wasn’t the Ollie that we all know and love. There were quite a few scenes that were literally hard to stomach, but I just tried to keep remembering, THIS wasn’t Ollie. Not our Ollie and afterward, no one could hate him more than he hated himself. ❝ If you don’t walk out of here with Mia, know there are other fish in the sea.❞ In an instant, my smile faded. “You don’t get it. Mia is the sea.❞ I swear Ollie and Mia can’t catch a break. It’s one turmoil after another. They went through a lot in Stay With Me, but in Even When I’m Gone, I feel like EVERY single thing they went through was destined to tear them apart. But I absolutely love seeing their love push on through every single trial and tribulation. They prove time and time again, soulmates really do exist. ❝ Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it. Poetic.❞ The secondary characters, I was really upset with most of them. All because of a cruel prank Mia, who at that point had already “lost” Ollie, then lost almost EVERYONE who was SUPPOSED to be her friend. Turns out they didn’t care nearly as much about her as they once claimed too. I will say, Mia, forgave way to easy. Which was yet again another way we saw how just how much more Mia had grown. ❝ You’re Mia and Ollie. Never broken, only bent.❞ Then there was Zeke. The relationship that both Mia and Ollie have with him is the sweetest thing ever. We saw a little of that in SWM but we saw a lot more of the connection they both have with him, and him with each of them, in EWIG. Finding out Ollie’s plans for him and Zeke, as well as Mia, when they were finally able to get out of Dolar makes me Ollie him even more. I can’t even write about Zeke… 😭😭😭 ❝ I just needed someone to hold me because when my eyes closed, the ache surfaced. Ollie wasn’t here to take it away, but Ethan was.❞ Ethan Scott became a very big part of the story this time around. We first met Ethan as the police officer who came to Dolar after the incident between Mia and Ollie’s brother Oscar. This time around, he is a security officer at Dolar and the seven months that Ollie has been gone, he’s developed a very unique relationship with Mia. He became her friend and her confidant when she had no one else. ❝ You’re desperate, I know, but his touch is never going to fix it. You’re empty, I know, but he can never fill the place I once did. I warned you, my love, but you’re stubborn and never listen.❞ —Oliver Masters That ending, that epilogue… OMG, I am STILL speechless. I just KNEW that there was more going on, but just when I thought I had figured it out, something would happen and it would throw me off the trail. BUT, what ACTUALLY is going on, yea I NEVER saw that coming!!! SPEECHLESS!! Now I’m left feeling a plethora of emotions that I STILL haven’t been able to work out yet. Talk about a book hangover!!! ❝ Perhaps you were here to remind everyone that angels are real, in the shape of humanity and the color of grace. And for a brief moment in time, we all sang the same song.❞ —Oliver Masters Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone are not only on my Top Reads Of 2019 list, but they are also on my top reads EVER list and I highly doubt they’ll be knocked off any time soon! Now I am impatiently waiting for book three. I HIGHLY, HIGHLY RECOMMEND checking out Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone. ❝ Consuming, timeless, unselfish, love. I’d loved you in my darkest hour when I wasn’t myself, and I’ll love you in every lifetime after this.❞ ♡ℂ𝕠𝕟𝕗𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕆𝕗 𝔸 𝔹𝕚𝕓𝕝𝕚𝕠𝕡𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖’𝕤 𝕆𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕒𝕝𝕝 ℝ𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘♡ ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ – SIX STARS FOR AN ABSOLUTELY FUCKING AMAZING STORY! There’s not much else I can say to convince you of how absolutely devastatingly awesome this story is. Even When I’m Gone will have you on a rollercoaster of emotions and just when you think it’s OK to finally take a breath… BAM! The angst will slap you right across the face! The constant build-up in this book had my heart beating out of my chest… I was so anxious the entire time I was reading. I am so invested in these characters, and the journey they are on. Nicole Fiorina, you are fucking amazing my love! You have come into this book world kicking and screaming, if you haven’t heard of Nicole yet, trust me you will soon! With just TWO releases under her belt, she is quickly becoming an author to watch out for! If you haven’t started this journey with Ollie and Mia yet, what are you waiting for?! BUY THIS BOOK! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 – Mia and Ollie together are the definition of SMOKING HOT! I have NEVER seen a couple that is so clearly meant for each other the way Ollie and Mia are, and when the two of them come together, they damn near combust! 🌪🌪🌪🌪🌪 ℂ𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕗𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 – If you thought Stay With Me‘s cliffhanger did you in, you haven’t seen anything yet! Even When I’m Gone is only book two of a three-book series so there is still a LOT more of Mia and Ollie to come! ⚠️ 𝕋𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 – There is a sufficient warning at the beginning of this book. This series deals with depression, suicide, as well as many other mental illnesses and subjects that could be considered triggers. THIS IS NOT AN EASY READ! 📔📋𝔹𝕃𝕆𝔾𝔾𝔼ℝ ℕ𝕆𝕋𝔼 – If your blogger friends who you know have read Stay With Me or Even When I’m Gone, please check on them, we are NOT okay! 😭 Blog|Facebook|Instagram|Goodreads|BookBub|Amazon

  21. 5 out of 5

    Atropos❀

    I’m not so sure what’s more terrifying, the violent storm inside my head or the silence.” —Oliver Masters The only reason why I'm giving this a 4 instead of 5 ☆ because of how Ollie's evil side played in this. Don't get me wrong the book is great, and enjoy every second of it, and I understand its for unravelling the story and character development, still I had a bit of withdrawal from Oliver's characterization in book 1 and how his persona drastically change. But I'm glad he redeemed himself and ge I’m not so sure what’s more terrifying, the violent storm inside my head or the silence.” —Oliver Masters The only reason why I'm giving this a 4 instead of 5 ☆ because of how Ollie's evil side played in this. Don't get me wrong the book is great, and enjoy every second of it, and I understand its for unravelling the story and character development, still I had a bit of withdrawal from Oliver's characterization in book 1 and how his persona drastically change. But I'm glad he redeemed himself and get his head out of his arse now. One thing I noticed though, in some instances whenever the author written a sequel it tends to be inconsistent, but thats not the case of this book, in terms of plot and character development its prominent, its still written poetically and beautifully. This book tests Mia and Oliver's deathfying, all consuming, timeless & unselfish love ♡. And Ethan fuck, I did not see that one coming. He was both the hero and villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me. Kiss her crazy and love her insane.” —Oliver Masters

  22. 5 out of 5

    EducatedBookFreak

    The Emotion this book evokes from you, the characters - all the situations and words said - this book is SO AMAZING!! I’m mind blown, in awe, anger and love with Nicole Fiorina (I’ve already told her this btw!). This emotional, gut wrenching book is definitely one TOP 10 read of 2019!! This twisted, mental and emotional romance is so different and truly is a tale of emotionally-twisted lovers that never should bee, but are so PERFECT together. Hands down - YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!!! It will ruin m The Emotion this book evokes from you, the characters - all the situations and words said - this book is SO AMAZING!! I’m mind blown, in awe, anger and love with Nicole Fiorina (I’ve already told her this btw!). This emotional, gut wrenching book is definitely one TOP 10 read of 2019!! This twisted, mental and emotional romance is so different and truly is a tale of emotionally-twisted lovers that never should bee, but are so PERFECT together. Hands down - YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!!! It will ruin most of the other books you’ve read this year!! I flipped the pages of this book so fast - I got nothing else accomplished. It was an obsession I couldn’t stop thinking about and had to have no matter the consequences. Her words captivated me and when the ending came - the way I felt was overwhelming. I NEED MORE ALREADY!!! I had to take about 4 hours to write this review. I was heartbroken, emotional, overwhelmed - you name it, I felt it. Her books gave me insight into these forbidden, unheard of parts of life. She throws this chaotic, psychotic, overwhelming, unemotional tale and BLOWS YOUR MIND!! I can honestly say I’ve never read a romance like this ever before. She broaches topics that are considered forbidden, but takes them and writes an unbelievable romance that will shake you to your core!!! When starting with Stay With Me, I fell hard for Ollie and Mia. The ending slayed me. This book takes that book, leaves off where it the previous book left off, and takes you on a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings that you don’t want - but can’t help but feel. I experimented such awe between the characters. The support, love, uncontrollable emotions (literally!), and everything that encompasses Ollie and Mia. Ollie and Mia’s dialogue are so perfect and will give you the willpower to continue on. Their words hit you deep and soak into your soul. Ollie and Mia. Emotionally-crossed lovers that find each other, but everything has a tendency to get in the way of them. Medication - people - situations: you name it, it has happened. Their story is one that has you literally holding on for dear life!! I have NO WORDS to describe what happens without ruining the whole story for you. In this book, you learn some insights into the past, gaining perspective into WHY Ollie and Mia are the way they are. So many influences are at play in this book. Hold on tight - it’s a bumpy, sensual, overwhelming tale you won’t get over quickly!! (Warning: Book 3, I’m assured, is coming as quickly as she can!! This ends on a cliffhanger!!) So do I recommend this book - HIGHLY!! Stars: 10+ stars

  23. 5 out of 5

    Carolina León

    Book 2 definitely destroyed me lol It’s clear that Nicole Fiorina has a way of writing stories that make your heart beat faster than you ever imagine before. She is not afraid to give you ALL THE FEELS. This book wrecked me till the point where BIG FAT tears were running down my cheeks without stop and I honestly couldn’t sleep afterwards. By the end, I felt devastated, sad, anxious and extremely emotional. But mostly, I was astonished by the talent of this author. It still amazes me to know this Book 2 definitely destroyed me lol It’s clear that Nicole Fiorina has a way of writing stories that make your heart beat faster than you ever imagine before. She is not afraid to give you ALL THE FEELS. This book wrecked me till the point where BIG FAT tears were running down my cheeks without stop and I honestly couldn’t sleep afterwards. By the end, I felt devastated, sad, anxious and extremely emotional. But mostly, I was astonished by the talent of this author. It still amazes me to know this is just the second book of this author. And let me tell you something, she proudly did all this without following the rules. If you want to give a defined trope to this story. Try again!!! This book has it all. Do you want suspense? You will get it. Do you want romance? You, without a doubt will get it. Do you want a pinch of psychological thriller? YOU WILL F*CKING GET IT. “You’re desperate, I know, but his touch is never going to fix it. You’re empty, I know, but he can never fill the place I once did. I warned you, my love, but you’re stubborn and never listen.” – Oliver Masters. To talk about Ollie is simple and utterly POETIC. That’s the best way to describe the amazing character Nicola created. Watching him overcome his demons was FANTASTIC. Not only he fought for his sanity but also for his greatest love; Mia. The character development was extraordinary. Each one of them has something important to add to the story. You can’t stop thinking they are there for a reason. And if you keep reading, you surely going to find out why. “No matter how angry I was with him, my body wasn’t” –Mia. Mia is a strong and persistent woman. Even finding a purpose in life, she never stopped evolving. Never stopped believing she was capable of changing the course of her life even knowing the consequences would be devastating for her already broken heart. “Give me a love so intoxicating, I never suffer a hangover” – Oliver Masters. I can take all day explaining how this book can change your life but this is something you HAVE to experience. This is a MASTER PIECE. There is not other way to explain how BEAUTIFUL this story is. I just can’t get enough of Nicola’s writing and how delicate and profound this story is. No matter how much it hurts to read it, you don’t see yourself EVER STOPPING. You just keep craving more and more of Ollie and Mia’s story. Be ready for the plot twist of your life because the journey has just begun.

  24. 5 out of 5

    Britney Chavez

    So I have been impatiently waiting for this book to come out as soon as I finished Stay With Me! So naturally when it got dropped on my kindle at night I dropped everything and started it and read all night til I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore. Then finished it the next day lol. I have loved Ollie since SWM and just loved him even more in this one. His mind, heart and how he wears his emotions just pulls on MY emotions. To get his POV of what happened in the end of book 1, if you haven’t read So I have been impatiently waiting for this book to come out as soon as I finished Stay With Me! So naturally when it got dropped on my kindle at night I dropped everything and started it and read all night til I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore. Then finished it the next day lol. I have loved Ollie since SWM and just loved him even more in this one. His mind, heart and how he wears his emotions just pulls on MY emotions. To get his POV of what happened in the end of book 1, if you haven’t read that go now cuz I don’t wanna spoil it for ya, to see what was going through his head at that time just killed me but made me happy that he was still in there deep down. There were parts that I wasn’t happy with him but in the end understood the situation haha. Mia my poor little Mia. I was so happy with her this book, not that I wasn’t in book 1, but her strength in this one just made me so damn proud and happy. There were so many times she could ya w went back to how she was but she stayed true to her new self and made sure she got her Ollie back. Never once did she lose her faith in him. I love them together. But the ending you guys about damn near broke my heart for many reasons. So now I am left impatiently waiting for the final book haha. This book took me on such a roller coaster of emotions. From happy to sad to flipping anger and to broken-hearted. I have no words other than incredible and amazing. Loved every since damn page of this gorgeous book!! 5️⃣🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 PLUSSSS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 💯💯💯 recommend this book and this series!!

  25. 4 out of 5

    K.

    FIVE POETIC STARS! ☆☆☆☆☆ "There's a thin line between a win and a loss, the line being how you respond to it." -Oliver Masters I can't. I'm speechless. I went through every emotion possible while reading Even When I'm Gone. The FEELS! Nicole Fiorina's poetic and beautiful writing will make you feel each word captivating you, and making it impossible to put it down. What a page turner! Be ready for a sleepless night, and make sure you have a stress ball, tissues, and your heart ready for this roll FIVE POETIC STARS! ☆☆☆☆☆ "There's a thin line between a win and a loss, the line being how you respond to it." -Oliver Masters I can't. I'm speechless. I went through every emotion possible while reading Even When I'm Gone. The FEELS! Nicole Fiorina's poetic and beautiful writing will make you feel each word captivating you, and making it impossible to put it down. What a page turner! Be ready for a sleepless night, and make sure you have a stress ball, tissues, and your heart ready for this roller coaster of unapologetic writing to crush your soul. "The only way to cheat death is by creating a love that will live forever." -Oliver Masters Ollie, you can love me insane! *Swoon Mia, damn girl. You are badass. Ethan, *wink. Hey, boy hey! Zeke, I will never forget February 29th. You love unconditionally. "There might be a storm inside my head, but never get between me and my heart. That is a battle you will lose every time." -Oliver Masters A MUST READ!

  26. 4 out of 5

    Foxie_bookaddict

    forget what you knew in BOOK1. this book is different so different I mean good different. the angst the pull everything was so awesome. I couldn't put it down. i guess the author suffered while reading it because the feelings I felt were so real so damn real that I had to put my kindle to take some breaths. the epilogue is not expected at all and I guess it was my favourite part of the whole story forget what you knew in BOOK1. this book is different so different I mean good different. the angst the pull everything was so awesome. I couldn't put it down. i guess the author suffered while reading it because the feelings I felt were so real so damn real that I had to put my kindle to take some breaths. the epilogue is not expected at all and I guess it was my favourite part of the whole story

  27. 4 out of 5

    michayla

    3.5! this was such a hot mess but i couldn’t stop reading. the term crazy in love? yeah. that has never been more relevant through the absolute chaos & mayhem in this though, i still adored ollie & mia “I love you…Consuming, timeless, unselfish, love. I’d loved you in my darkest hour when I wasn’t myself, and I’ll love you in every lifetime after this.”

  28. 5 out of 5

    anna

    dnf at 64% i cannot fully comprehend or explain what i experienced during this book. actually, i’m just going to keep it blunt in my natural, potty-mouthed vocabulary--i fucking hated it. there, that’s it. i absolutely loved the first book in this series, Stay With Me. that shit slapped. i enjoyed mia, loved ollie despite his sometimes cringy poetry, and tolerated all of the side characters. mia’s story was heartbreaking, and i’ll probably never be able to recover from her monologue in group ther dnf at 64% i cannot fully comprehend or explain what i experienced during this book. actually, i’m just going to keep it blunt in my natural, potty-mouthed vocabulary--i fucking hated it. there, that’s it. i absolutely loved the first book in this series, Stay With Me. that shit slapped. i enjoyed mia, loved ollie despite his sometimes cringy poetry, and tolerated all of the side characters. mia’s story was heartbreaking, and i’ll probably never be able to recover from her monologue in group therapy at 67%. also, the “games” she and her friends played were kinda hot. i’m not even gonna pretend otherwise. that being said, the second i started this book, and ethan was thrown in my face, i slowly began to perish. like, lord, why? how could you put me through those awful scenes with that ginger? i knew--i fucking knew--that bitch (ethan) had ulterior motives. he says he’s protective of her, but then he’s climbing into bed with her (which is so inappropriate). like, what’s with the security guards fucking the patients in this place? anyways, one second he was “comforting” her from her nightmares, the next, he was taking advantage of her vulnerability in that position (also the fact that she was currently suffering from heartbreak) and getting naked beside her. then he followed her around like a shadow. “‘Careful, Jett,’--Ethan took a step back--’You’re pushing away the only person left who gives a damn about you.’” say it with me: ✨manipulation ✨ how the hell am i expected to like this guy? in the entirety of my life, i have never truly “lost my appetite” from something happening around me, something i was watching, or something i was reading. but, let me just say, when mia woke up to find ethan’s fingers practically inside her, i physically pushed my dinner plate away from me. god. thankfully, she rejected him. but then this whole thought process happened….? “Ethan exhaled, and I don’t know why, but I felt selfish at that moment. He’d been nothing but good to me, and I couldn’t man-up and give myself to him for one much-deserved night.” watch your shoes, because i might vomit all over them. this is a message to literally anyone who reads this: i don’t care if that man ended world hunger, you don’t owe him your fucking body. especially if you don’t want to give it to him. the whole thing just felt like emotionally cheating to me. even if they weren’t together, idk how mia just let her “friend” in bed with her every night when she was still in love with ollie. i understand her need for comfort, but she called that man a “father-figure.” sis, you sleep with your father now? honestly, i probably just don’t understand her need for comfort. i’ve been told i have an apathy problem, so…. another thing that ground my gears was ollie’s whole-ass behavior in this book. listen, truthfully, physical “cheating” in romance for me is fine if it happens before the h and H kiss, fuck, whatever. but his shit with maddie? unacceptable. i don’t care if he was fucked up on meds. he said he was horny all the time. here’s my solution: go to mia and say, “hey, mia, when i’m on these meds, they’re like viagra. i’m scared that if i’m not regularly intimate with you, i’m gonna make a huge mistake.” sis didn’t even try that. there is no way you can be fucking other people (or even attempting to) in the SECOND GODDAMN BOOK. especially after you professed your love to the h and told her you wanted her forever. forever! now, i’m not saying all people everywhere are perfect, and i’m not saying that cheating in real-life is inconceivable. it happens. but this isn’t real life. this is a book. these are characters. their actions are completely controlled by an author. how the hell, as an author, could you let your H tell a girl he needed her to hold on and bear with his medicated personality, then have him almost fuck a different girl? not to mention, a few scenes later, ollie wants to “show mia how much he loves her,” so he fucks her from behind against a…..desk. brutally i might add. i’m sorry, i’m just at a loss for words. like-- i don’t-- just read this: “As if I lost all will to move, I morphed into whatever he needed because I didn’t want to say no.” “Over and over, his familiar pelvis slammed into me in an unfamiliar way as my eyes stayed fixed on the mattress where we used to make love.” ollie saying “sorry” doesn’t change the fact that mia didn’t want any part of that. at all. while he was coming, bruises were forming all over her body. at this point, i thought he was just as bad as a lot of the alpha-males i have to sit through. he changed into an unrecognizable person, and that wasn’t a good look. i don’t know what happened to my overly-emotional, poet boy, but that wasn’t him. at some point during this book, a switch flipped in my head, and i started barely reading the words on the pages. skimming couldn’t even describe how little of it was entering my brain. so, i just stopped. i didn’t wanna read it anymore. i might hate myself, but i don’t hate myself enough to get through this torture. by sixty-four percent, the story was getting better. everything was starting to fall into place, but i was just so over it. honestly, i wish i never even read this book. i loved the first book, and yesterday, after i finished it, i couldn’t stop thinking about it. but now it just seems kind of--i don’t know--tainted? like to know that the first book leads to this? nah. i don’t care who the “prankster” is. i don’t care to know how this book ends. or the entire trilogy. and i promise i’d sooner suffocate a small animal in a plastic bag than read the third book that includes ethan’s perspective. sorry. that was hella graphic. i’m just so damn mad. i seem to only be able to “review” a book when it pissed me off. also, even though i always do this, i’m classifying this as a rant. not a review. but my rating whole-heartedly stands, and i will defend it against anyone. actually, schools starting soon, so…. nope, i’ll still do it. my opinions mean too much to me.

  29. 5 out of 5

    Hayley Blaiberg

    I am really enjoying this series. Nicole Fiorina does not make this beautiful relationship between Ollie and Mia easy, she makes sure she throws everything at them! Plus you never get to think, come on then something has to happen this has been too good for too long! Drama, after drama, after drama, she throws so many plot twists for this couple, some you will see coming and some you won't. I am always looking for the plots and let my mind go around and around in circles trying to figure it out, I am really enjoying this series. Nicole Fiorina does not make this beautiful relationship between Ollie and Mia easy, she makes sure she throws everything at them! Plus you never get to think, come on then something has to happen this has been too good for too long! Drama, after drama, after drama, she throws so many plot twists for this couple, some you will see coming and some you won't. I am always looking for the plots and let my mind go around and around in circles trying to figure it out, it's annoying but its how my mind goes, so I love it when I don't see the plot coming, even when thinking back on the book it was obvious, the book took us on so many journeys it was hard to keep up with it all. I knew with a third book that it couldn't end how it was going, but through all the trials and tribulations I really hope that Ollie and Mia get the ending that they so rightly deserve in the next book, I have everything crossed that this book does not leave us with a bitter sweet ending!!

  30. 4 out of 5

    Christina ( The MasqueReader )

    I have no words to describe how I’m feeling since reading the last word of Even When I’m Gone! Heck...throughout most of this book! I wanted to throw things and scream! Instead I typed a lot of CURSE WORDS to my friend who buddy read it with me! Then I THREW THINGS electronically via message! I took a lot of deep breaths and tried to focus on my breathing! Yes, I really get into my books! Even When I’m Gone is ABSOLUTELY FREAKING AMAZING! If you haven’t read Stay With Me; the first book in this I have no words to describe how I’m feeling since reading the last word of Even When I’m Gone! Heck...throughout most of this book! I wanted to throw things and scream! Instead I typed a lot of CURSE WORDS to my friend who buddy read it with me! Then I THREW THINGS electronically via message! I took a lot of deep breaths and tried to focus on my breathing! Yes, I really get into my books! Even When I’m Gone is ABSOLUTELY FREAKING AMAZING! If you haven’t read Stay With Me; the first book in this series...STOP..GO READ IT NOW!!! It is the beginning of Mia & Ollie’s story and what a beautiful beginning it was!! Mia and Ollie are two of the most unique characters I’ve ever read! The love that these two found within each other is extraordinary and has the power to touch and heal souls. Ollie Masters...with those gorgeous green eyes that brighten when he’s the best version of himself! Barely living until he met Mia Rose Jett; once he had her he knew his life only existed with her. Mia experienced trauma that led her to close off her feelings; made it easier to deal with the world around her if she didn’t feel anything or establish connections with people. After Ollie found his way inside, then he left her...every single day without him is torture for her soul. “Stay with me, even when I’m gone.” Mia & Ollie fight not only the demons in their mind but also the evil around them that wants them apart. So many new players in EWIG, it’ll make your head spin with ideas and all the possibilities. Hands down, my favorite part of this series are the quotes at the beginning of each chapter. I said that for Stay With Me and I’ll say it again for Even When I’m Gone. These words are beautifully written; meant to be read by the world. I hope you all enjoy them as much as I did. Also, gotta get this out too..my 3rd favorite character is Ethan Scott! I won’t go into any details. I just couldn’t finish the review without giving a shout out to my man! I am in complete awe of Nicole Fiorina’s words! I could not put these novels down, they are that amazing! I always love finding a new author; but to find an author at the beginning of her career that has such talent and can capture my mind so completely is such a joy! Whereas I’m a bit sad I can’t binge read her entire backlist since there isn’t one I’m overjoyed to be able to follow along now as she continues her career!

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